Residual signals of fear


Have you ever experienced any other people’s lives in dreams? And you had no clue about why it was happened.

I had that wonderful day with Michael on his birthday, we went to the beach shop, he had a super joyful time there, and the only thing, I could relate to my dream that night was the waves…

I was one of those women with kids trying to hide together in a very small building. The building was like a maze and it was topless, the walls were super short as the space was very narrow as well. I somehow could manage to hide myself with my daughter at the safest place, and I made sure no Japanese soldier could see us and then slaughter us.

There was another woman in front of me at the other side of the short wall. She tried her best to hide her kid and covered them with a flowering blanket. But I could see, her half body was exposed.

They were coming, the deadly Japanese soldiers. A man asked a question:” Does anyone know how to make @#$%^ cake?” I didn’t know what kind of cake he asked. And I knew it was a trick to get us. Unfortunately, a little girl stood up and answered the question.

Her mother soon was discovered and was taken to the front, her hands were tied up. The man smiled and cut off the ropes on her hands, he said:” I will let you go…”

Suddenly, my daughter ran out, she said she needed to pee, and she ran very fast. At the same time, some Japanese soldier shouted:” run! run!”

I started to run with my mother, I didn’t know when was she there with me. we caught up my daughter, I picked her up in my hand, she became so small like a bird, or she transformed to a little bird.

I felt I couldn’t run any longer anymore, but the soldiers were after us. My mother held my hand, and she dragged me to run faster than before.

There was no way to escape the slaughter. More soldiers were coming in front us, we were surrounded. We jumped over the wall, and there was the ocean out there.

With no choice, many women and kids including my mother, my daughter and me, running into the ocean…

I didn’t know how long it’s been. When I woke up, I was still in the water, there was a cliff behind us, it was another place or maybe not. Then it’s changed to another scene. There was a stage in front of us, people were telling this story I just experienced. And, some of the real survivors came on the stage, some were killed or drowned. I could not stop crying and crying.

The dream was so lucid, like a dream in dream, or an experience in dream. And I wonder, was that me escaping the slaughter or it’s really happened to someone else? Were they survived or were they killed?

Wisdom is the goal of life

“Joyful is the person who finds wisdom, the one who gains understanding.
For wisdom is more profitable than silver, and her wages are better than gold.
Wisdom is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her.
She offers you long life in her right hand, and riches and honor in her left.
She will guide you down delightful paths; all her ways are satisfying.
Wisdom is a tree of life to those who embrace her; happy are those who hold her tightly”. Proverbs 3:13-18 (NLT)
What do you pursue in your life? Power, wealth or reputation? 
None of them can make you happy, power can lead to corruption,  wealth can make you sink into debauchery, and reputation is something you can not chase for.
Only wisdom is the final goal of the life, wisdom will give you happiness, happiness is what we all want, but which power, wealth and reputation can not give.

The dry butterfly

You fly, I fly, everyone else would fly,

Mountain is high, sky is high,

But you try, I try, everyone else could try.

We trapped in the net of the life,

Like this butterfly, and another butterfly.

Die and dry,

The butterfly just wanted to fly,

But it’s trapped and died.

You fly, I fly like the butterfly.

The beautiful butterfly.

Written by Haimi Wak

Photo by Haimi Wak

Inspired by Dr. Seuss

Nothing but Love

When light shone through her eyes,

Fear was gone, hope was risen.

Nothing to live for but love,

Why did not you love her.

When wind blew through her hairs,

Time was gone, truth was risen.

Nothing to hope for but love,

Why did not you love her.

Written by Haimi Wak

Diamond heart

“After I die, take out my heart, after you die, take out your heart. Our kid will turn our hearts into one diamond, we’ll be together forever in this universe.” James said.

“Just do it, deeper, don’t be afraid. Burn your name in me.” The three letters stay in his left arm for the rest of his life.

“I hope we are trapped in an unknown small island, so that, you’ll never ever leave me.” He said.

“You don’t know how beautiful you are! You don’t know how much I love you. Look at me, look at my eyes, listen to me, ‘I love you’.”

“You’re so Evil, he loves you so much, now you leave him? You destroyed him!” Vanessa said.

“Son, I can tell, you really love her, if you love her, why don’t you be with her?”

But, I, I can not deal with lies…

Written by Haimi Wak